assalamualaikum...
boy; did'nt i've seen you anywhere??
girl:you've seen but don't look....
boy: if so..i might be a blind person...
November 25, 2012
chapter 76: reason
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some CHANGES required a HUGE effort to be done for...
BIG step to start for...
MORE sacrified to give for...
November 24, 2012
chapter 75: my changes?
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selamat pagi...hari ni aku xde mud nak tido lelame...sakit kepala...ngeee...okeh..bebaru neh..my fren der bg gmbr pade aku...as reminder...zaman ddedolu..aku neh bukannye spesies addict nak bergambr k ape...tumpang msuk sekakli boleh r...nak bergambr sdirik..asenyer...ermmm...xkot..so...mmg..aku msuk...snapping the piccha then blah...xdela pegi tngok k hape gmbr2 tu..so as many years passes....ngee..aku pun tetiba tergerak ati nak mntk ngan kwn aku gmbr dulu2...xkesah sikit..asalkan ade..then she mail me those piccha...dan aku..scream out..is dat me??!!err...kenape aku muke camtu...huwaaa...taleh timer dos fact...huuu...but worry not..human tend to growing up matured..so do i...ngeee...
tengok la perubahan aku...utk tatapan peribadi...weeee
form 5: mrsm yt besut
okeh..ni time cuti part 6...sumpah..aku ske giler muke aku time neh..sbb dh nampak bujur...ni bukan edit k hape ekk...mmg pure myself..
random pic...from year to year...korang judge la sdiri...huhu
maybe korang rase aku telah done surgery yang memerlukan kos yang berjuta2...=.="
i dont blame dat..coz its a fact..im not the one who really care about appearance...so..i tend..i keep to torture myself..without even to pampered myself well...ermm..well..just to appreciate myself a bit more..i didnt think dat way before..but now..insya-ALLAH..in a good manner..i will appreciate myself...not because i want to attract people...but just to care of myself..coze..im a growing up lady now..im showin dis doesnt aku nak pandang rendah pade diri aku...just..aku nak centerkan kat cni...kite selamenye xkan dok kat takuk lame...mesti changes happen pade ourselves...banyak atau sikit..benda tuh...mmg akan happen..even without we noticing...ermmm...cuma..ape yg bezakan dye is..baik atau buruk..as long im not harm anyone..i guess its alrite...just one thing...im not trying to burukkan diri sdiri...xbersyukur k hape...but aku cuma gtaw.,..everyone deserved to be better for her or himself...^^
breath 74:conflict
assalamualaikum..
waaa...sumpah lame giler x jenguk blog neh...huwaaa...errmmmm...dah lame aku duk cni..sumpah...from bulan 9...and now...dh bulan 11...dah nak msuk bulan 12 pun...28 neh aku dah konvo...diet aku?hancusss...ekekeke...tp aku smngt lg...errr...cuma..xthu bile nak start trang tang2 blik..maybe time cuti neh?2 bulan kot aku cuti..so asenyer...sempat la aku nak kuruskan blik budi2 aku neh...weee...tp still..aku kawal lg mkn...cuma xstrict cam dlu...
okeh stop!!hurmmm...ape ekk nak gtaw....well..my abah...xberape sihat...sakit ape?kene gtaw ke?well...xperlu la aku ckp..just sakit dye tuh...agak berat..n lau xkene handle...maybe boleh bawak maut but u guys...plis2..doakn yg terbaik utk abah..and he already had his treatment..im called him after many weeks didnt listened to his voice and alhamdulillah..i can feel relieve there...a voice of lessen burden..alhamdulillah...syukran to u ALLAH...alhamdulillah...
seken...okeh..aku pun xtahu cner bnda neh jadi...okeh..aku thu..ecelly ni asalnyer from my inner self jugak..spesies mudah perasan..n maybe aku neh mmg xleh lari dri rase gni...but aku xslhkan sesaper...aku cuma best planner..but the judges..the best one hanya ALLAH...aku plan utk tamo suke sesaper kat cni..okeh...Dia kabulkan doa aku...aku xsuke bebudak same umo aku but my sunbae!!!omai...aku yg xpenah suke senior skunk buat tebiat leh suke senior..sumpah!!aku xpenah suke senior...but worry not..i guess..hanya aku jer yg dok soseh2 teringat ke dye...but him...sumpah x!!!
aku penah buat cubaan berani mati...added him as my fren dkt fb..pastu aku ditarbiah oleh sorang kawan yg baik...aku delete dye blik..but wat for..im stalk him if have any free time...tp asenyer skunk ni dh kurang sket kot...hehehe...at least...till now...errr...
adoi..dis feelin payah nak traslate lah...if any..if any gugle translate..yg boleh terjemah perasaan aku time..plis2...aku sanggup beli...mcm...mcm...ubat..yg supposely xperlu kite telan..tp sbb warna dye menarik cam coklat...aku keep..attact2..attract to him!!!padahal..jumpe pun jarang..dah la lelain kos..caner aku kenal dye?ohh..xperlulah aku buke pekung di dada...ngeee...ckup la aku ckp..i like him..but dis feeling unbelievable coz aku xput any hope to go further with dis feelin...ase2 faham x?rasa hati ni...cam...one day..akan faded away..though i will miss dis feelin after long time xkene...hurmmm...
aku boleh ckp...aku tertekan if im alone...sebab i keep thinkin bout him...aku ase aku dah kene gune2 ke dye...tp aku xberani ckp pape...harap pape...hoping pape...sbb aku xyakin...sbb aku xnampak solution there..atleast..lau dulu2...ade la jugak perasaan yakin i can get dis person.;..maybe sbb same umo..kos..but him..totally different..and him..maybe already like someone else...tp aku xleh la denied..aku rindu nak tngok wajah dye...aku agak sdeh..hri tu jumpe..but he doesnt has any change to see my face...hehehe...ade nada perasan kat ctu..tader2...at least...lau dye terperasan aku...might be he remember me?who now..always2...hri tu...dye dh duk kt kelas aku daa...but still...dye xperasan aku... i guess...sbb..aku jer yg perasan dye...but him...x...hurmmm...
tolong la..neutralkan balik perasaan aku neh..asenyer...ni adalah my pure feeling after faizrul...aku might like other guy before..but not strong as this...rindu2..cuma...xde la riddiculus missing cmni..omai...ALLAH...tolong...aku..aku xtahu nak buwat ape..ase mcm nak giler!!